I'm in kind of a funk. It's the worrying about getting paid soon enough to get bills in on time, it's the not having friends to hang out with, it's the not having money to go anywhere. It's the fact that Rach's car is falling apart and I don't have money for a bus pass. It's that the bank charged me twice when they should have only charged me once. It's the being starving, but not being interested in eating anything. It's a lot of crap.
I've been working mostly nights so we haven't eaten a lot of meals together. My training is over, and with that goes my free food from Panera. I normally work from 4 or 5 until about 10 or 10:30, and the times falling outside that bracket are not really times I'm interested in eating. And then I want to go out and meet people, but we don't have money for gas, money for parking, money for any event, and we shouldn't even drive at night because Rach's taillight is out on her car and guess what? We don't have the money right now to get it fixed. And we don't really need money to have fun, but we're running out of things to do, just the two of us. And we don't know how to make friends besides going to hang out at CU. It's frustrating.
The plus side of all this is that at least my "Panera Family" is beginning to look familiar. It's nice to have people I know, a place I'm comfortable in, and a job, I suppose. It's just frustrating. I'm beginning to feel that I'm going to get behind on bills, and since they never stop I'll never get caught up. So much for the dream.
I'm just ranting; I'm really okay. <3
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