I'm in kind of a funk. It's the worrying about getting paid soon enough to get bills in on time, it's the not having friends to hang out with, it's the not having money to go anywhere. It's the fact that Rach's car is falling apart and I don't have money for a bus pass. It's that the bank charged me twice when they should have only charged me once. It's the being starving, but not being interested in eating anything. It's a lot of crap.
I've been working mostly nights so we haven't eaten a lot of meals together. My training is over, and with that goes my free food from Panera. I normally work from 4 or 5 until about 10 or 10:30, and the times falling outside that bracket are not really times I'm interested in eating. And then I want to go out and meet people, but we don't have money for gas, money for parking, money for any event, and we shouldn't even drive at night because Rach's taillight is out on her car and guess what? We don't have the money right now to get it fixed. And we don't really need money to have fun, but we're running out of things to do, just the two of us. And we don't know how to make friends besides going to hang out at CU. It's frustrating.
The plus side of all this is that at least my "Panera Family" is beginning to look familiar. It's nice to have people I know, a place I'm comfortable in, and a job, I suppose. It's just frustrating. I'm beginning to feel that I'm going to get behind on bills, and since they never stop I'll never get caught up. So much for the dream.
I'm just ranting; I'm really okay. <3
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Hey guys...
Sorry these posts are so far and few between, it's been difficult to get to a place with internet lately. Also, I do have pictures to post, but my phone is apparently too low on storage for me to send any messages, so I'm sorry, but there will be no pictures in this post. :(
So, to get you all (ha, if anybody reads this) caught up on the happenings of my life... here is a list:
1. a week ago Rach and I went to an lgbt club in Denver, not necessarily because it was lgbt, but because we figured it tends to be easier to make friends with the lgbt-friendly. It was the craziest club I've ever been to. I got my ID checked three times, had to empty my pockets, and was patted down before I was allowed in the building. We're definitely not in Kansas anymore. We weren't really in the mood to dance, so we mostly creeped outside on the patio, looking for people to be our friends. It's so hard to make friends without being in school. We'll see, I guess. It's lonely sometimes. It was a fun club, with 18 year olds all the way up through about 50 year olds. There were straight people, gay people, friends, couples, you name it, I saw it. Not to mention all the restrooms... they all had signs that said, "This bathroom is heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, transexual, trisexual, and lastly unisexual." It reminded me of my bff Tony. :)
2. WE HAVE BEEN HORRIBLE ABOUT COOKING LATELY. Also, we've been eating crap. It kind of breaks my heart. Today we went to Sprouts, this local organic, natural market, and loaded up on the veggies and fruit. It's just really hard to have a set schedule when...
3. I'm always working nights. In case some of you haven't heard, I have two jobs now. :) I work at Panera Bread (about 5 miles from my apartment), and Forever 21 (about 3 miles from my apartment in the other direction... in the mall, lol). They're both part-time gigs, but Panera might as well be full time. I work from around 4 or 5 until about 10, which makes cooking dinner a difficult process. We're going to try and figure out some schedule, but my days are kind of off anyway, so maybe it's best to eat "lunch" around 3, which would make it okay to be eating dinner around 10:30. I just don't know yet.
4. Not much else has been happening... a lot of hanging out... waiting. We're so desperate to find a group of friends to hang out with, but it's so so so hard. We're looking to go to CU on Sunday afternoon (maybe... I think I work :/) to watch the Broncos game. (: It's so much fun to be so close to an NFL city... we're 10 minutes from the stadium, too. We're desperate to find a place to watch all the games, lol. buuuut we'll see about that.
SIGH. whatever. I'm going to go find a book about things. <3 <3 <3
So, to get you all (ha, if anybody reads this) caught up on the happenings of my life... here is a list:
1. a week ago Rach and I went to an lgbt club in Denver, not necessarily because it was lgbt, but because we figured it tends to be easier to make friends with the lgbt-friendly. It was the craziest club I've ever been to. I got my ID checked three times, had to empty my pockets, and was patted down before I was allowed in the building. We're definitely not in Kansas anymore. We weren't really in the mood to dance, so we mostly creeped outside on the patio, looking for people to be our friends. It's so hard to make friends without being in school. We'll see, I guess. It's lonely sometimes. It was a fun club, with 18 year olds all the way up through about 50 year olds. There were straight people, gay people, friends, couples, you name it, I saw it. Not to mention all the restrooms... they all had signs that said, "This bathroom is heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, transexual, trisexual, and lastly unisexual." It reminded me of my bff Tony. :)
2. WE HAVE BEEN HORRIBLE ABOUT COOKING LATELY. Also, we've been eating crap. It kind of breaks my heart. Today we went to Sprouts, this local organic, natural market, and loaded up on the veggies and fruit. It's just really hard to have a set schedule when...
3. I'm always working nights. In case some of you haven't heard, I have two jobs now. :) I work at Panera Bread (about 5 miles from my apartment), and Forever 21 (about 3 miles from my apartment in the other direction... in the mall, lol). They're both part-time gigs, but Panera might as well be full time. I work from around 4 or 5 until about 10, which makes cooking dinner a difficult process. We're going to try and figure out some schedule, but my days are kind of off anyway, so maybe it's best to eat "lunch" around 3, which would make it okay to be eating dinner around 10:30. I just don't know yet.
4. Not much else has been happening... a lot of hanging out... waiting. We're so desperate to find a group of friends to hang out with, but it's so so so hard. We're looking to go to CU on Sunday afternoon (maybe... I think I work :/) to watch the Broncos game. (: It's so much fun to be so close to an NFL city... we're 10 minutes from the stadium, too. We're desperate to find a place to watch all the games, lol. buuuut we'll see about that.
SIGH. whatever. I'm going to go find a book about things. <3 <3 <3
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